Warning: This is a post where I kinda vent out for a bit so hope you don't mind reading this. (Not that anyone would actually read my blog anyways…)
March is neither a good or bad month anymore for me…
There's been a lot of deaths in my family:
-Murders
-Natural Causes
-Aging
Many past conflicts:
-Adult Fights
-People In Hospitals
-etc
Yet there are some good things that comes out of it…
Birthdays:
-A Bunch of Friend's
-Mine's
-Parties
Spring Break:
-Trips
-Visiting Family
They all overlap each other, so I don't know if I'm suppose to be happy, sad, or sorry. Especially where to direct these feelings towards. One day feeling sad about a loved one-next day be all happy because it's a friend's birthday that day. There are days that start off good then eventually turns into endless tears. Sometimes I wonder that my being in this world was just a burden to everyone and my very existence is creating pure bad luck to the people surrounding me. I know it's not true, but… but it just keeps coming back. "Would everything be better off if I never existed on Earth?" I would ask myself that sometimes just for the thought of it.
Thanks for reading my post, it means a lot. This just a random venting moment so I feel like posting it. *-*
FYI: I not going to be all suicidal though cuz that's lame.
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